Our last visit. So Much to bring you up to speed on and in truth I just don’t want to. I want to think about the future a bit instead. I am sure a little bit about the last two months will come up in future writings.
We are at the end of 2019 and I am saying goodbye thank you for the lessons and memories, but this has not been my favorite year. Lots of loss, illness, too many feelings and a overwhelming feeling of being lost. My hope is with some much needed changes 2020 will be a year of improvement and love. Yes that does sound a little Eat Pray Love like, but that’s ok. It was a good movie and a better book. Lol
I have noticed my abilities to write in complete sentences and spell them correctly has taken a massive hit lately. One of my goals this year is to write more and more importantly better. Wish me luck.
I have been driving down to see my mom at the rehab center in Canton several times a week. This has been hard on me financially so I got behind on the monthly bills. I will get caught up. I always do, but it means more overtime (yes I know counterproductive to the more rest thing) and some tightening of the belt. No meals out, more coupons and more evenings in. In a couple of months I should be back on solid ground.
I keep driving by this old building that is for sale. I say to myself one day I am going to buy that building and build a kitten cafe there. Just a little spot where people can come in for a cup of coffee and cuddle a kitten. I see myself there surrounded by kitties doing bottle feedings and hearing the little meows. Of course there will be older cats there too. Because snuggles come in all shapes and sizes. A place full of caffeine and furry butts sounds like heaven on earth to me. I even have a name CELLO Cafe. If you know me you might guess that is the first letter of each of my children from oldest to youngest.
I am also seriously thinking of switching jobs. I have no place to advance to here and raises stopped coming unless given by the state. There are 20 somethings make more money then me in a grocery store and fast food restaurant. What am I going to do? No clue, but I will let you know when I figure it out.
Well it’s getting to be that time. I have some bills to pay and shopping to do. But I also feel the need for a nap so I am not sure which I will do first. Take Care.
Tomorrow I have the day free and I am planning on cooking a homemade dinner and dessert AT HOME. A chicken ranch potato casserole with a vegetable side. Dessert will be a crockpot apple pudding. I am kind of excited, but freshly squeezing oranges and peeling apples worries me because I am not that handy in the kitchen. But what the heck lets try.
The other thing I need to do is gather up the summer outside decorations and get the put away for the winter. It’s past time to do that.
Then a water change for the fish tank should be the end of my chores. We have more Fries coming so the water change might mean more little ones survive. I have three very pregnant platies. I have four little Babies which is kind of cool.
I also have to prep for Mom’s doctor appointment and David’s DHS appointment both are on Monday. I am looking forward to see my mom. It’s been two week and that sucks. But knowing she is somewhere safe makes it easier.
Well time to go make my shopping list. Have a great night.
Hi there. Sorry it’s been so long. I have had a tough couple of weeks and I am still trying to process. It’s amazing how much a person can handle when they have to. But only for so long.
About a month ago one of my Little Darlings started getting ill doctor said it was a virus. Ten days after that she went into the hospital. She was in there for a about a week and a half. She was diagnosed with Colon cancer that had spread to other organs and it was terminal. The choice was made to bring her home and have hospice come in. She wasn’t even home three days when she passed. I was with her when she took her last breath. Sitting with someone at home when they pass is different then being in the hospital. At the hospital you sit and watch the machines and medical professionals are there with you. Here I was the medical professional. I was the one searching for her pulse, calling everyone, sitting and waiting. Knowing that I have been trained to save lives to not call 911 or do CPR was strange and made me feel helpless.
We made it through the viewing and the funeral as a work family. Staying strong for each other. Some tears, but not the deep cry I am still waiting on that. Work is strangely quiet now. I miss hearing her meow at me and laugh when we are joking around. I miss so much.
Momma had a unexpected move to my brother’s house in Westland. The details are not mine to give. The move was a lot of work but we had help from friends. Now I need to gather all numbers, information and odds and ends for my brother. I will continue my Monday visits with my mom just in Westland now.
My mental state is a bit rocky and I haven’t even decorated for Halloween. My house is a wreck and I don’t have the energy to do anything about it. David’s Birthday is today and I did nothing and I feel terrible about that. Bunco is tomorrow evening and I was going to make a Halloween Trifle, but I am still worn out.
You know that saying the things that don’t kill you make you stronger? I think I am strong enough for a while thank you. I think I will take a vacation next month. It will probably just be a staycation, but sleep and reading sounds perfect to me.
Well friends I suppose it is time to get back to work. I will try to keep in touch better. Take Care.
A very good Sunday morning my friends. I hope you have had a fantastic weekend. It is the last one of September and I can hardly believe it. The month has flew by and I have accomplished absolutely nothing. Well at least it feels that way. The front bushes still have not been trimmed, haven’t cut down the tree in the fence and I haven’t even managed to get the fairy garden packed up for the fall. That is what I will be concentrating on this week.
But it has been a very stressful time at work one of my Little Darlings is ill. I can’t go into more detail because the nature of my job. However if you pray I would appreciate those.
It’s been an extremely long week so yesterday we went to get dinner out at Culver’s and while we’re there they gave Libby a pup cup. Which is a little cup of ice cream with a doggie treat on top. As you can see she was extremely happy. Honestly I think businesses that do these type of things are pretty cool because many of us treat our animals as if they are our children.
Today ends my 70 hour work week and I am exhausted. My house looks like a tornado hit it and even though this week I would normally start putting up my Halloween decorations I don’t know if that’s going to happen yet or not. I did get some sleep last night however so I don’t look like a zombie anymore. Yesterday I put a picture on Instagram and it looks like a mugshot from Oakland county jail. LOL.
I’m going to show you a couple pictures of something that I’m working on. It is called diamond art and I’m sure most of you have heard of it by now. The funny thing is even though it’s dealing with small pieces I find it extremely calming for me. The left side is what has already been done the ear and the bow. I have about two and a half hours of work in it so far.
Minnie Diamond Art
The tools that come with it are pink wax, a stylus wand, a gray tray with ridges for your diamonds and the diamonds
And since this is something that I enjoy I have already ordered a kit for Christmas so I went ahead and bought myself a diamond box from Amazon for my diamonds. It’s easier than working with the little bags.
This week is going to be extremely busy. We have to take Honey to get a haircut tomorrow and I will be spending the day with my mom. The evening I have to get my shit together and get my yard stuff taken care of. Wednesday there’s some doctor appointments that need to be ran. And it’s also a 60 hour work week. I know I can do it all, I just hope I have the energy to do it all well.
Okay my beautiful friends I think I’m going to go work on my project for a little while have a fantastic week and please keep my Little Darling in your prayers.
Good Saturday morning. It’s a beautiful day and I am feeling ok.
Been a strange couple of days. Yesterday was our company picnic. We got there and everyone was gone except the big boss, the second in command and the miracle worker of the office. But they were kind enough to wait for us. My Little Darlings ate and visited a bit. The wind blew, the thunder boomed and it rained but we were under the pavilion. They sent us home with a shit ton of food.
Wednesday I spent the day with my mom at the ER. She took a dive and bruised some ribs. But with a little rest she should be good as new.
Monday I spent the day with my mom. We ran some errands and went to the movies where we saw the remake of THE LION KING. A good day.
Thursday I took 20 cans of cat food, four gently used harnesses, two boxes of Milk Bones treats, one big container of kitty treats and some cat toys and donated them to the Michigan Animal Rescue League. Does my heart good.
Haven’t been on Facebook in two plus weeks. I never realized how much my life revolved around it. Sad to say. But I am doing more in the real world.
Well it’s time to get busy. Have a great weekend.
Good morning and I hope you’re enjoying this beautiful Tuesday. It’s about 10 a.m. and I’m in the middle of some housekeeping duties. I thought I’d take a moment to say hi and see how everybody’s doing?
So I decided to take a little break from Facebook. I found that I was spending way too much time online and not enough time in the real world. I don’t know how long I’m going to stay off of it but I do know I have a lot of things I should be doing or could be doing instead.
Today for instance I am cleaning cat dishes and organizing pet supplies. The picture below is Lilly being my little helper.
Last week a friend of mine contacted me about trying to help place a cat named Smokey. Several of us put his picture up on our social media and we found him his Furever home. Social media can do some amazing things when good people are using it. Below is a a picture of Smokey. I hope he is happy with his new family.
Y’all know I’m a big fan of Halloween and I was at pet supplies plus and I saw this costume and I thought about making Libby a skunk for Halloween. After all she is my little stinker. But I have a pumpkin costume that fits her great so I didn’t buy it.
But that got me to thinking about the old costumes, clothes, leashes and harnesses she has outgrown. As you know I am a pet mama who loves to dress her girl up. So I looked online and found that the Michigan Animal Rescue League will take gently used or new leashes and harnesses as donations. I have a few of each so I’m going to donate to them and then they’ll be put to good use instead of hanging in my closet.
Well the laundry has quit spinning so I should probably get off my dead ass and do that. Take care of everybody and we’ll talk again soon.
Good Saturday morning. I hope you are all enjoying it. I’m at work (shh don’t tell anyone). It’s been an extremely laid back morning so far.
Tonight is bunco and the plan was to have my family over for dinner before and then go. But I mixed up my dates as far as paydays go so the money just wasn’t there. But my family offered to bring dinner because they are such amazing people. So it’s still on. And a quick trip to turn in some coin and bunco is paid for. Maybe not ideal but it’s about being with those you love. And that’s exactly what will happen.
Yesterday I was going to to do the overdue household chores, but the unexpected midnight shift wore me down so I rested and it was joyous. I watched Games of Thrones with David watching some of it with me. My girls and boy took turns curling up with me.
I read somewhere about ways to entertain your dog while you work on things they really want to “help” with. I love my girl, but Libby can be like a bull in a China store. Lol. So anyway you take a Long stuff it with soft dog food and freeze it. It works! It gave me about 30 minutes of time.
When mom moved out Cali’s favorite napping place went with her. I began looking and read about these fluffy ball beds. I bought one for Cali but it’s not her thing. But it is Lilly’s and so she enjoys the bed and Cali sleeps on the couch.
So my friends everyday we are learning something new and isn’t that what life is all about.
Day 3 I woke up feeling a little better. I am sitting here attached to what I fondly call my automatic drip. A beautiful older frail woman sits next to me named Molly. She is about my mother’s age I would guess. She wears a scarf around her head. Always a beautiful color or colors.
While I am on day three and my final day this is her every day. Kidney failure. She doesn’t talk a lot but the one thing she says to everyone is get your rest and listen to the the God damn doctor!
Love her. Blunt people are my people. She says she can tell I am a worrier. I check my phone, my calendar, I make appointments when I should be resting. “Find yourself a good therapist honey,” she says to me. “You can’t save the world.”
I just told her I was writing about her. She said, ” Of course you are I am a fucking vision” Lol.
Maybe this happened so I would meet this lady. Maybe this was my warning sign. Slow down bitch you can’t do it all type of deal.
Molly’s husband has arrived. “Come on Molls”, he says “let’s blow this pop stand and find turkey sandwich.”
I have 30 more minutes because I got here late. Think that’s just enough for a quick nap.
Hasn’t gone as well as I had hoped. A rough 3AM start on my birthday set the tone I think.
I smiled through the day and enjoyed the blessings I had before me. I went to bed in a little pain, but thought when I wake up tomorrow will be better.
Tomorrow wasn’t better. Tomorrow the pain got worse and I took myself in to be looked at. A kidney infection and a gall bladder infection. Treatment began right away.
I come home exhausted and the fun really begins. So I rest woke up this morning to continue what the doctor ordered. And that means more rest.
Life continues on and I got to tell you I don’t know what to do.
Tomorrow is day three of doing what the doctor says and another day of rest.
What then? How should 47 go? How can I help? What do I do to make life better?
A very Happy Mother’s Day to you all. I hope you all have had an amazing day. We celebrated with my Momma yesterday. We had lasagna casserole, garlic bread and chocolate cake for dessert.
A chocolate cake with raspberry mousse.
My brother Les and my sister in law Anne came for dinner. It was great to see them. This is one of my favorite photos of Mom and I. One day I will print it and frame it. We were out at Drag King/Queen show fundraiser.
Momma and I
Everybody keeps asking me what did I get for Mother’s Day. David let me get my present early and I got this amazing purse. So fucking cute with it’s whiskers on one side and tail on the other. I have only carried it for two days and four people have told me they love it.
Whiskers on the front.
Tail on the back.
It’s just PURRFECT! LOL So tell me what did you do for Mother’s Day? Did you spend it with your mom or maybe your children? Have a great night!