Looking At The Positives

Happy Saturday friends.  Not sure what day we are on of this Covid Mess.  But what I can tell you is that is the same number of days it’s been since I have had a day off.  Except when I took David to the hospital for a non Covid issue.  I can assure you that wasn’t a vacation.  So I am feeling extremely tired and my body hurts.  BUT that is all the bitching I am going to do about that.

Let’s talk about my blessings!  I have a Soulmate at home who is keeping my furbabies safe and happy while I am working all these hours.  Who listens when I come home ready to quit and NEVER go back again.  Who makes sandwiches exactly the way I like them even when he thinks it’s weird.   Who always gives me the strength to get up when my body and my mind say enough.

My Momma- I miss her so.  I can’t wait until I get myself a big Momma hug and a smile.  Being away from the woman who has been my best friend most of my life sucks.

My family- Brothers, In Laws and honorary siblings.  I miss being able to have a meal.  To be able to go to birthday parties of my great nieces and nephews.  To hug my mother in law.  To sit outside at the BBQ’s and chat with my family. Soon I can be there with them and I will never take it for granted again.

My C0-workers- These are the most amazing ladies ever.  They work hard, show up on time.  Do as asked, care about each other.  And are being amazing during what is a very difficult time. I wouldn’t trade them.  I need their laughter every day.

My friends- In real life and on social media.  They keep me smiling, check to make sure I am ok and share a little of their lives with me daily.

My Furbabies- My oldest who is 22 to my youngest who are both 9 weeks old.  Unconditional love, with waggie butt, purrs, tweets and licking tongues. I would work 4 jobs to make sure they have everything that they need.

In a time when we could be focusing on all the negatives and man there are a lot of those.  I am taking time each day to focus on the positives.  Hoping one day soon we can go back to seeing our love ones again and doing the things that we love.

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Who Is That Masked Woman?

It’s me!  Yep and I am more than happy to do it.  Is it hot?  Yes and it fogs up my glasses.  Are the bands uncomfortable around my ears? Yep and I have sensitive skin so I am getting red marks.  Do people find it hard to understand me?  Yep, I repeat myself a lot and doing so drys out my mouth.  See I sure can bitch about it, but what good is that going to do?  If it is what is required of me to do for my job and the health of my love ones it WILL be done.  I guess that is why I am having such a hard time with people bitching about having to follow protocols put in place to save lives.

I have been watching and reading the news a lot lately.  I can’t even fathom working in the horrid circumstances that hospital employees are working in.  My boss and I have been talking about if we can figure out how to get men back from space after a malfunction can’t someone figure out how we can help make PPE for health care workers?

Look I am not a smart woman.  I am of average intelligence, but give me a list of supplies, a pattern and I will figure out how to make the things that are necessary.  My staff and I have reupholstered a sofa using dollar store duct tape.  I used shower curtains to make a wrap when bed bugs were in the group home because they thought I was a great snack.  We could help, but we need guidelines.

I know that professional gowns made for from manufacturers is best, but we saw the footage of healthcare professionals wearing trash bags.  We certainly can do  better than that.

What if retired doctors, nurses and all the smart people would brainstorm some guidelines for us then we could do the labor.  I sew a little, I duct tape like a fucking rock star and I am sure there are others who would be willing to help.  I know they say we are doing our part by following CDC guidelines, but each time I see that hospital footage I want to do more.


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Saturday Morning Odds & Ends

It’s Saturday morning and the best I got right now is that I am awake.  The laundry is spinning due to an upset tummy last night.  I have decided I don’t like that HP washers.  I don’t feel they clean as well as my regular washer at home.  Just personal choice I guess.

So how are things?  Do you have enough toilet paper? Are the kids out of school there like they are here?  I feel so bad.  So many kids here rely on school for free breakfast and lunches.  I hope the powers that be  find a way to assist them.

My Little Darlings’ workshop is closed for the next two weeks.  We haven’t told them yet because the outburst and carrying on that we can expect doesn’t need to spoil the weekend.  I will tell them Sunday evening.

Today I have to make the decision of do I take them out in the community for an outing or do I have them stay home and deal with the issues that brings.  Right now I am leaning towards going out a trip to the local Kroger for a needed item or two and then drive thru McDonalds for lunch.

Workshop closing down will add to my overtime and since I still have some hefty medical bills I will take it.

This week the new staff start which is always an adjustment.  The one I have already worked with I feel good about.  I am hoping for the same results with the staff that comes in today.

St. Patrick’s Day is just around the corner and I didn’t get the decorations out.  I plan on getting the Easter ones up.  But with two 76 hour work weeks heading my way it may not happen.

My fur babies are doing great.  Even with as busy as my days get my fluffs make sure I get a little love.  Usually they curl up with me at bedtime for head rubs before I fall asleep.  I just got to not let myself get so busy that I miss out.

Well the laundry has quit spinning so it’s time to get busy.  Have a fantastic week and stay safe.

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March? Already?

When did that happen?  I mean don’t get me wrong it means we are closer to warm weather and sunshine, but I haven’t won the lottery yet or even organized my backroom like I have been planning for months!

Soon people will be walking around in shorts.  Razor sales will increase because women will shave more than just their ankles.  Sunscreen will replace the smell of vapor rub.

March means cleaning up the dog shit that accumulated under the winter snow.  With Libby’s assistance of course because she needs to sniff the piles before they are picked up.  Puppy quality control and all.

March also means St Patrick’s Day and looking at Pinterest for yummy meal and dessert ideas.  Irish cream is not just for coffee anymore.

Been thinking move about my CELLO rescue and all I want to do.  Ok maybe more like daydreaming.  There is an old Big Boy by my house that I would love to buy (with my lottery money LOL) and I would turn that into the CELLO Rescue Cafe and my main office.  I would use both of the sun rooms as Kitten and Cat play areas.  Come in for a Coffee, scone and love on a kitty or cat up for adoption.  I would ask recues to bring their babies for play days and hopefully help more fur babies get adopted.  I would have my friend Chris be in charge of my landscaping if he wanted because he is awesome.  I would hire my buddy Cedric to take the pictures for the advertising and adoption portfolios if he would be interested.  I would have a little area where local crafts people can display and sell their kitty toys and treats.  I would either hire a baker or I may just buy from local businesses.  Most important every single staff has to be an animal lover.

AND when that is all up and running I will open up one for puppies and dogs!  Because I am an equal opportunity animal lover.  Lol

Well me and my daydreaming ass had better get back to work.  Have a great day and hopefully we will have the fantastic weekend weather the meteorologists keep talking about.

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Hot Toddy Lightweight

It’s a cold Saturday morning and my Little Darling is still battling her cold.  While she is doing that I am battling not to get it.  I fear that I am losing the battle.  Yesterday I came home with a sore throat and the start of a runny nose.  By 9PM I was feeling like absolute shit, but couldn’t sleep because of the desire to cough.

Usually when that happens I would down a larger than prescribed dose of Nyquil and pass out.  I haven’t restocked since the last time we were sick and funds are short so that didn’t happen.  David suggested a Hot Toddy might help, but I brushed him off.  11PM I was still awake and cranky so I agreed to try his home remedy.  David brought me a mug of tea with a touch of orange juice and a little rum (not even a half of shot he assured me).  The mug was warm and felt wonderful in my hand.  When it cooled down enough to have a drink I could actually feel it warming up my body.

For those that don’t know before my surgery I could drink like a rock star.  Two Long Islands, Three French Whores and Two Red Headed Sluts was what I could handle.  After that I was throwing up in the bushes.  But I wasn’t even halfway done with my Hot Toddy when my face got all warm and I was feeling no pain.  I should have stopped there like David Suggested, but I felt good and I wasn’t coughing.  I gave him the pouty face and he said one more sip.

Between you and I my friends it ended up been more like a swig.  As David took my mug back to the kitchen I just started cracking the fuck up.  My cat looked at my like what hell Mom?  My dog kept trying to lick my face.  I think to see if I was ok.  By the time David got back to the bedroom tears were rolling down my face and I had to pee.  I don’t think I was  drunk after my half of a Hot Toddy, but I sure wouldn’t have been able to operate heavy machinery.

When the laughter calmed down David tucked me into bed and said, “Good night Lightweight.”  That’s right I am officially a light weight now. Other than a Jello Shot or two a year ago I haven’t had any alcohol in three and a half years.  I think it will be quite a while before I do again.  I think I will stick to hot tea and honey.  Lightweight, yeah I am good with that.

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Good evening friends and Family.  I hope you are all doing well.  Lately I have started listening to audiobooks in the car.  Right now I am listening to HOW TO STOP FEELING LIKE SHIT  by Andrea Owen. I have to tell you guys I am loving this book.  The Title tells it all.  It talks about all the things we do or allow to be done to us that make us feel like shit.  In today’s chapter she was talking about people that are extremely hard on themselves when they fuck up (me).  It doesn’t matter if it is a little fuck up or a big fuck up (me again). Whether it was done on purpose or a mistake (soo me).  She talked about AFGO  I can’t remember if she made it up or learned from someone else, but I heard it from her.  When I fuck up instead of filling my head with negative talk (I am so fucking stupid!  How do I even remember to breath?) I am to say AFGO which means Another Fucking Growth Opportunity.  Instead of mentally beating the shit out of myself I say ok I fucked up.  How do I grow from it?  Definitely easier said than done.  BUT once I start doing it more and more instead of beating myself up it will become the healthier habit.

The book is geared to women, but I think guys could get stuff out of it too if they are inclined.  I am not saying it’s going to change me into a whole new woman, but as I change (which I feel I am) I want those changes to be positive for me and those around me.  Hell yes I can be evil, self centered and at times scary, but I don’t want to be.  I chose somewhere within the last couple of years to start doing things differently and I have.  Some shit is harder to deal with than others.  Taking the baby steps forward and trying to acquire the skills to make these changes is helping.  But as we all know the journey never ends we just hope with each step we become better.

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The Wolf…

I don’t know about you, but The Wolf is at my door.  It’s nerve wracking to me.  I have a huge thing about falling behind on my bills even if it’s temporary.  So I have decided to look for some overtime or a second job and work when I can.  There are some serious medical bills to deal with.  I will be tired as hell, but I refuse to stay behind.

We are already half way through January and I must say it’s going by quicker then I thought it would.  I am doing pretty good health wise (you bet your ass I just knocked on wood).  So that is a plus.

I think as I age I enjoy the simple things about my life more.  I love watching tv at home in the living room curled up with the fur babies and my Soulmate.  The joys of cooking dinner which I used to hate.  Walking into my kitchen and saying yes this feels right.  Doing laundry and sitting on the bed folding it as I watch Netflix.  My 20 year old self would never believe the simplest things are bliss.

So Valentine’s Day is right around the corner.  I don’t give a shit if it is a hallmark holiday.  They have a few awesome cards at Kroger that I am looking  at for my coworkers and they come with chocolate.  Lol  Not to mention the flowers!  I love getting flowers.  Doesn’t even have to be expensive ones.

Coupons!  Yes I bought a Sunday paper and I will be going on coupons.com before I do the little bit of grocery shopping I can do.  I do a lot of shopping at Aldi, but if Kroger or another store has a deal I can’t pass up for my job or family then I will make the trip.  There is nothing wrong with a little savings.

Got to see my Momma yesterday.  We went to Sam’s Club and Walmart and I think we both got worn out.  Lol.  She did pick up a couple of tops.  I hope she likes them they are pretty.

Ok time to go get busy!  Have a great evening my beautiful friends.

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Let It Rain!

A very good Saturday morning to you!  Man is it raining!  Where is the Ark?  Actually this rain doesn’t bother me.  I am not looking forward to the snow and ice that are coming soon.  I already told my coworker if it’s to bad stay home.  It’s not worth it.

We have a potential New Little Darling visiting and it’s a very different feel for her.  We are an extremely structured home.  Where the people that live here are assisted to learn to do for themselves.  I gather that isn’t the case where she lives now.  But if she decides to move here it will be a great opportunity for her to grow in a structured setting.

Today when I get home I have two major tasks to complete.  Clean the bird cage and the cat boxes.  LOL  Doesn’t that sound exciting?  It may not be the most fun activity I have to do, but it’s the labor of love thing.  Clean potties equal healthy fur babies.

This Monday I have a doctor’s appointment I should have been taking my meds and sticking to a diet.  One out of two isn’t bad.  Can you guess which one I have stuck with?  Of course you can.  The plan is now that I am remembering to take my pills on a daily basis I will work on improving another area of my life.  Baby steps and all that stuff.

I was just cruising Pinterest which is like my porn and came across a recipe for Cherry Pineapple Dump Cake which sounds yummy for our next staff meeting.  Like the boss and I always say if there is a staff meeting there better be food.  Lol

Well it’s time to make up then menu and shopping list for the next two weeks.  Maybe I will do a little more Pinterest hunting for something yummy.  Have a great rest of your weekend and stay safe out there.


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Money Is As Tight As A Puckered Asshole

Yes I said that yesterday to a friend when they asked if I wanted to out yesterday.  LOL  She looked at me like she wasn’t sure what to say.  You can tell she hasn’t known me very long or that wouldn’t have surprised her.  BUT it gave me a giggle!

Gooood Sunday morning my friends.  It is a clear Sunday morning here in Oxford.  A little cold, but certainly nothing we Michiganders can’t handle.  I am at work and my Little Darling is working on her scrapbooking.  Soon we will be doing a little grocery shopping  to start off the work week on the right foot (well her work week lol).

The house smells strongly of onions because I just cut them up for homemade beef stew.  I hope as the stew cooks in the crock pot that smell is replaced by the spices.  Onion smell is seriously yucky. I got  a simple but interesting recipe from Pinterest.

Tomorrow I am headed down to Westland to visit with my Momma and family.  My sister in law keeps me up to date of her progress which is awesome.  I don’t worry about her as much as I used since she is there.  We have an appointment and then I don’t know what we are going to do.  I am up for anything.

Well friends going to get some things done around here and then head out to the store.  Have a fantastic day!

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First Day of 2020 and Walmart

Yes friends that is right in roughly three hours I will be going to Walmart on the very first day of the New Year.  Pray for me please!  Lol!  No seriously at work we are running low on a few items and I have a gift card to use up.  Not to mention it is good exercise for my oldest darling and I and it will take a chunk out of the sixteen hour day.

I have a shopping list and a menu to make up and so what am I doing?  Playing on the computer.  Can we say avoidance technique?  You know I don’t mind shopping as much as I used to.  I used to be concerned that people were staring and judging what the fat chick was buying.  Does that surprise you?  I mean I come off as all I GOT THIS STRONG, but most of the time underneath it’s more let me hold on.  BUT then the day came when I realized most people are just trying to hang on.  So now I walk through the store offering people smiles and greetings.  Especially the older people because I don’t know how many smiles they actually get to see in a day.  This helps me too, I stopped worrying about what people think.  What is that saying…”Other people’s opinion of you is not your concern.”

So I have decided this year I would like to go on date night twice a month on payday.  There are a few places I have been wanting to visit and when I drive by I say one day I would like to eat there or hey wouldn’t it be great to take a class in that.  One day is now and I need to start living more like that.

Well it’s time to shift gears and head to Pinterest. I need to find a crockpot beef stew recipe, make that menu and shopping List.  Have a great first day of 2020 my beautiful friends.

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