Hi there. Sorry it’s been so long. I have had a tough couple of weeks and I am still trying to process. It’s amazing how much a person can handle when they have to. But only for so long.
About a month ago one of my Little Darlings started getting ill doctor said it was a virus. Ten days after that she went into the hospital. She was in there for a about a week and a half. She was diagnosed with Colon cancer that had spread to other organs and it was terminal. The choice was made to bring her home and have hospice come in. She wasn’t even home three days when she passed. I was with her when she took her last breath. Sitting with someone at home when they pass is different then being in the hospital. At the hospital you sit and watch the machines and medical professionals are there with you. Here I was the medical professional. I was the one searching for her pulse, calling everyone, sitting and waiting. Knowing that I have been trained to save lives to not call 911 or do CPR was strange and made me feel helpless.
We made it through the viewing and the funeral as a work family. Staying strong for each other. Some tears, but not the deep cry I am still waiting on that. Work is strangely quiet now. I miss hearing her meow at me and laugh when we are joking around. I miss so much.
Momma had a unexpected move to my brother’s house in Westland. The details are not mine to give. The move was a lot of work but we had help from friends. Now I need to gather all numbers, information and odds and ends for my brother. I will continue my Monday visits with my mom just in Westland now.
My mental state is a bit rocky and I haven’t even decorated for Halloween. My house is a wreck and I don’t have the energy to do anything about it. David’s Birthday is today and I did nothing and I feel terrible about that. Bunco is tomorrow evening and I was going to make a Halloween Trifle, but I am still worn out.
You know that saying the things that don’t kill you make you stronger? I think I am strong enough for a while thank you. I think I will take a vacation next month. It will probably just be a staycation, but sleep and reading sounds perfect to me.
Well friends I suppose it is time to get back to work. I will try to keep in touch better. Take Care.