People aren’t sure how to handle quiet Cindy. Am I mad? Sick? Lost in thought? So many times people draw their own assumptions which is kind of silly when they could just ask. Today is a lost in thought kind of day which is why I am here.
Lots going on in the old melon, but just not up to discussing it with people. So much going on around me and I am trying to trying to process all that. Processing takes time and sometimes people don’t want to give me time. So right now I am in the you push me phase I am going to just shut down phase of all this.
Lots of the things that I have planned have not gone the way I wanted them to. It is disappointing and frustrating, but it is life. I knew somethings would pretty much crash and burn so that is why I spent my money on those things. In special circumstances things like that happen. Better to be prepared and not needed, then not have it. Now that we are getting back to a semi settled way of life I can adjust again.
So what is next? I don’t know just yet to be honest. I haven’t figured that out. Four more weeks of 40 hour work weeks for sure. Maybe start attending group again. Maybe get back to the gym. Maybe. Lots of Maybe(s). Today however is dedicated to quiet pondering.