Today has been a busy day. It started with an eyeglass appointment, where I said no to bifocals and went with readers. Cheaper and I think a better choice for me.
After that Momma and I went to get haircuts. So we are all cleaned up like shiny pennies.
Then home where I cleaned Erin’s messy bird-cage. That was a trip. It’s beautiful now, but it won’t be. I love the hell out of him, but he is a dirty bird.
Right now I am the only human awake. Mom and David are resting. Libby is sleeping by the chair and Lilly is laying down with Momma.
Well the election is done and we are blue state and hopefully on to bigger and better things. All three proposals past and the only thing that I am sad about is voter turn out in my area. Pontiac had the lowest voter turn out in Oakland County. They said between 10-20%. I wonder why? I heard people said they didn’t know who was running, I heard some people didn’t have transportation and my least favorite reason was they felt their vote didn’t matter anyway. Kind of sad actually we are leaving our decisions in the hands of a few. Wouldn’t it be great if more would get involved. Maybe as a community we need to get more information to the individuals, get some transport for those in need and convince those who think that they don’t matter that they do.
Well my back is starting to ache and so I am going to say see ya later! Have a great night.
Momma and I did that this afternoon. I had my mind pretty much made up for a while now, but I read something today that changed my opinion on one of the proposals. The one that I thought would be No brainer for me. It’s funny how quickly a person’s view can change. And why. During my younger years it would have been all about me. Now it’s about so many people. The elderly, special needs folks, and friends who I know medical marijuana is helping. Tax hikes, insurance issues and tons more.
With politics now a days you vote and hope for the best. Then if it didn’t work out the way we hoped we try again next time. The big thing is to never stop trying. Believe me I won’t.
Good late morning my friends. For those of you that don’t know I have been off from work since last Sunday. My doctor felt that I needed a rest. So that’s what I have been doing. So here is what is on my mind…Planet Fitness maybe a judgement free zone, but that seems like that is one of very few places that are.
I mean what the fuck people? I have heard grown folk who should be lifting each other up on a daily basis call each other names like small children. Not that bright, selfish, bitchy, lazy, stupid, ordinary and the list could go on and on. This bothers the fuck out of me. Nobody is perfect by any means and the negativity blasting off people right now makes long days longer and good people assholes. To be frank it makes other people not want to be around.
My work days are filled with people who have very little control of their emotions because of mental illness or defect. It’s a hard job and mentally exhausting. People with all their screws should know better. When I go places and the people there can’t treat each other or customers with respect and dignity I don’t want to go back. My list is getting pretty long.
When people want something or need something it’s great to speak out. I am all for it, but make sure you are asking, not telling, talking to, not at and don’t think people can read your mind. If I could do that I would be rich.
My world is not that big, I don’t own much and I don’t need much. What I do need is to be treated like a human being. With the simple dignity and respect all people deserve. If you can not give those things I feel sorry for you.
Yes it is an interesting title, but it’s what I am dealing with the most right now. Not actual physical Pan in my butt. But the daily dealings of other people’s emotions and feelings. Butt Hurt is when an individual is upset about something and either withdraws or interacts but with an attitude about something. Now the person this is directed at is supposed to know or a least notice enough to ask what is wrong. You with me so far?
As a person who deals with numerous people in many different settings I appear to cause Butt Hurt frequently. And in the past I would go through and try to solve or smooth over whatever the issue is. BUT (the other kind this time) this week I realized I spend a lot of time and emotional eating doing this. Which seems like bullshit to me. So I am going to wait to those with issues either get over it or come to me. Their drama, their waded panties or flying monkeys. Whatever phrase works for them.
My biggest drama moves in 7 days after a minor set back. My other drama I am handling on my own without the Butt Hurts. So I am expecting others to do the same. Somewhere along the lines we became a society where we expect our minds read and our problems solved. That’s not how it works people.
In six days my life is going to get so much better. Six days and one little change will help so much. Just about a year ago an individual came into my life and it has been battle after battle ever since. I find I overeat, I stay tired and emotionally drained all the time. And the biggest part is watching other people around me deal with this person and he/she is worse with them. So in six days this person becomes a memory and the people I love will be able to heal a bit emotionally.
This week I do not have a single day off. But that is ok. I will still rock this week. We have some decorating to do. Well I must go now. I have a busy, busy day tomorrow. Have a great night.
Yesterday was officially the first day of fall. In Michigan that doesn’t mean a whole lot. One minute it’s cool, tomorrow it could be 80 degrees or it could be snowing. That is the joy of The Great Lake State.
At work the staff already have up the Halloween and some Thanksgiving decorations. I guess we are decorating for Hallowgiving. Lol
So I started a journal today. Not on the computer but in a journal book. One where I actually have to write shit down with a pen. My plan is to carry it with me and when I feel like stuffing my face over something that has happened or that I am worried about I am going to write it down. I need to get myself under control and I hope this helps. I don’t think people understand that what they say can sometimes trigger my issues, but I don’t want people to quit talking to me.
I have another extremely busy week this week. There was a time that I didn’t mind, but with the Drama Queen living here now I can honestly say I hate coming to work. I mean literally every single day I lay in my bed and say I should just take today off just to get away from this bitch. Lol. But since I live off the overtime I get my ass out of bed and go.
Have I told you lately how lucky I am to have the furry children that I have? My Lilly just turned 3 the other day. She is such a little gift all covered in fur. I love that she will come in and curl up and sleep on me still. My Libby is starting to walk with her Grandma. It’s good for both of them, but I worry just a bit that my little horse will get excited and trip Grandma, but they appear to be doing good. Cali is still such a love. Older than dirt but still comes up for lovins and will curl up in our laps and sleep. Erin even though he doesn’t have fur, he has feathers, but he just loves his Dad and Grandma. He will play with his bell for his Dad and sit in the corner of the cage to talk to Grandma. My little blessings. My friend has a friend with a little black kitten without a tail. I keep on teasing David that I am going to get it and name it Moo Shu. LOL
Next weekend we have some stuff going on. David has a Magic Event on Friday. There is a Craft Show on Saturday I would like to attend at Clarkston High School and we have Bunco on Saturday night. Sunday I hope to get Erin’s cage cleaned but I have to be into work a little bit early that day so that is a big maybe.
The following week David goes to see the surgeon and I hope the neck collar comes off for good. And if it does I can start looking at a bed base and frame and get him out of that hospital bed. And then the beds can be pushed back together. Which will help with space in my room and in bed. Sharing my twin size bed with Libby and Lilly is a challenge. Lol.
Well my friends it is time for my chatty ass to go get busy. Enjoy your week,
My friend the other day had posted on Facebook an entry that said please keep your pumpkin spice out of my margarita. That basically goes to show the battle between summer people and fall people. I am a fall girl. Cider, donuts, falling leaves and of course Halloween. But I don’t want to rush it either. I’ll take as many warm days as I can get. but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t looking forward to it.
Monday I went to Michaels with Mom and I saw some really cool Halloween stuff. But the bathroom there was closed so the overwhelming urge to pee stop me from taking the time to show Mom what I saw. We will definitely have to go back and take a look. Just for fun because we got enough Halloween shit for two houses. Lol . I took a couple pictures but it’s much more impressive in person. But I’ll share them with you anyway.
As you can see it’s not cheap but man is it cool. Its like the Christmas Village for Halloween. Lol
So work sucks and that is all I am going to say about that.
Well time to go back to work. Take care friends.
Two days ago I started to feel it and I started to smile. A calmness is coming back to me. A combination of diet change, remembering my meds and realizing I am doing ok.
Not amazing, but ok and that is alright. I am getting things Done. Maybe a little slower than I hoped, but still making shit happen.
We are making it to the appointments, I am keeping track of the paperwork. I am paying the bills when the money comes in.
Could it be better? Of course, couldn’t it be for everyone? But I am counting my blessings right now. David is improving, Momma is healthy and my fur babies are bundles of love. And everything else is either working its way out or I am tossing it out. Lol.
Well David should be done with Blood draw soon. Next stop home for a nap. God I love naps. Talk to you later my Friends.
So I have been thinking about fun. You remember fun right? Something that you do because you want to, not because you need money or obligation. FUN. This began as I was drooling on Amazon the other day. I saw an awesome passport cover and I thought I don’t have a passport. Man wouldn’t it be cool to get one and plan a trip. That sounds like fun.
And then I asked myself what else sounds fun? Hmmmm…Paint and wine night, miniature golf, bowling and Bunco Monthly. What else? Movies at the theater, Ren Fest, Tulip Time Festival, DIA and silly day trips just to see silly things.
So I am starting with Bunco next month, more $5 movies and miniature golf. All are relatively cheap and easy on the knees. I will definitely work up to the passport and trip.
Oh my beautiful friends the Axsom/Gokey household is going to be going through some changes. Good ones. Healthy ones. NEEDED ONES. David and I went to several different doctors since he got out of the hospital and he has so much going on. I won’t go into details because it’s not my business to share, but a lot can be helped by a change in diet and weight loss. So he has agreed to start helping himself out by working on the diet. I know once he starts feeling better with that he will want to stop smoking. It’s just a matter of time.
So today I am doing the search for make ahead healthy meals for my family. Momma sure doesn’t need to lose anymore weight but a little more protein in her diet would be good. Hell yeah I am game. If there isn’t a lot of crap in the house I can’t eat it. And I know that if me doing the right thing helps them I will do well. That is my caregiver nature.
I am really hoping that all these things help me to feel good again too. I miss the energy I had. I miss not having the knee and back pains. The fucked up part is I know all these things are correctable by diet and life change and yet I still put it off. That my friends is some fucked up shit.
Well Pintrest is calling my name. Wish me luck and if you have any meal ideas please speak up. C ya soon.