Enough

Hello my friends.  Been a while, but here I am.  7AM and awake when I really should be sleeping.

I am a worrier.  I am very good at it.  I am an emotional eater.  I am very good at that too.  These two things feed off each other (pardon the pun) making me eat and have more anxiety.

A couple of weeks ago someone I work with had a family emergency and she needs more time to help out.  This person has been fantastic to me over the years so I offered to help.

Call it fate or answered prayers but I had recently decided I was tired of the bills looming and the wolf knocking at my door.  The anxiety of the what ifs was killing me.  I literally have nothing in case we have an emergency.  I can’t live like that.

So I am currently in machine mode.  Which means I am working all that I can and I will will continue to do so for as long as it takes to get things paid off and a little money in the bank.

Yes I am tired. Yes many days I just want to say fuck it and run away from my problems, but as we know problems have a way of Finding us.

So bear with me my friends.  It’s not easy but I will do my best to not be a total fuck wad in the process.

 

 

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One Response to Enough

  1. momma says:

    I worry about you health when you get in this state of mind. Remember that too much will put you in deeper shit than what you are now. It took a while to get to this state of mind and you won’t crawl out quickly. I will try to help where I can. Love you.

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